Deaths Averted n I am not insane as you say

Sometimes, a death can be avoided. 

Sometimes, you have to stand by yourself.

Sometimes, you have to stand for what’s right when everybody abandons you. 

Sometimes, your friends leave you, those religious dynamos.

So, this past weekend, I spoke with another.

Another parent.

Another professional.

My standing for the safety of my daughter was right. 

Other children almost left this world. 

She said, it was due to “Bullying” at ZMS.

She said, “it was horrible”, and, a lot of kids suffered.

She almost lost her son, but, “He is Okay now.”.

Just what I felt and knew to be. 

A confirmation of me. 

A confirmation of need. 

I did right by standing for my daughter.

Unfortunately, I lost the opportunity to have two possible friends. 

They disagreed with me.

The ran my name through the mud. 

I was their “Harasser”. 

My daughter was an “Attention Seeker”.

But the facts have been proven otherwise.

And a transfer from the school she has been. 

It is sad.

It is awful.

It is justice, my daughter and others are alive. 

Thank God, I am reluctant, because friends were lost, but Thanking God I am, because Lives were saved. 

It is not what I wanted to do.  But my child is my life and blood and God’s Gift.  

Miracles n Friends n Pills

Miracles n Friends n Pills

It is hard, but it reminds me of the golden years.  The years when I first Got saved and did not know what I was “was not doing”. 

I went up to a couple fighting by the subway stairs hoping to intervene and pray for them.

That was a big mistake, but I was on a mission.   I was saved.  I left my bible by the stairs in the midst of the bars so that someone else would “get the Word”;  all the while It was actually littering and I had loved that bible, duh.

So, when I was part of a men’s group recently, and the leader professed the “era of healing is Gone”, wow, I just started to reminisce.   I remembered the crazy days.  God has done too much for me, too many miracles since being saved to even remotely consider what he was saying. 

Really, no more miracles.  The Word is already spread and no longer needed is miracles, he said; wow.

I testified of the miracles abroad seen by missions workers. 

I testified about the fact that here in the US, we do not pray first.  We go to the doctor, and, his prognosis and medicine is our “healing” and “miracles”.  Not so, we need to pray first.

Depression, a pill

Anxiety, a pill

Sleeplessness, a pill

Unknown effects, a pill

Mind-altering effects, a pill

Prescription highs, a pill

ADD, a pill

The drugs are safe, a pill

The drugs cause cancer, a pill

The drugs cause and cure depression, insanity, a pill.

The drugs cure and cause suicidal thoughts, a pill

No prayer, no rest, no supports, but a pill

No reconciling, no forgiving, but a pill

Divorce, a pill; fornication, a pill; adultery, a pill. 

I talked to my daughter to avoid those pills.

A recent problem in her school caused the making of many enemies. 

I told her that defending myself is not glorious.

Making an enemy is not glorious. 

The scenario was not glorious, and, I am not taking a pill

But, the educators and physicians say take a pill.  They do not say make friends and create a support network.  Provide the services for a child; their answer is no, but, give them a pill and it will be better.  Huh?

Demons do not exist anymore, a pill does.

Hate does not exist anymore, a pill.

The North American thing is to take a pill, get high, it will be alright.

If in Utah and Alaska, it might be add some porn to the mix, that is what the preacher said.  His state is filled with porn, Utah, and ripe for missions, no pill. 

Demons are real and love pills.  Altering your mind and committing suicide is good, they say.

Make enemies is good they so, and do not reconcile.  That is not good.  And, I hope that my kids get the message that defending oneself is different from attacking and making enemies. 

Any animal will protect its young.  A parent will, in most cases, defend their children even onto death.

They will defend for days, years, hours, minutes, months on end.  I brought that child into this world.  God charged me to defend, raise, and protect my child. 

Demons are real.  They accuse you at night, They accuse you at all times.  They cause depression, they cause psychosis.  The only answer is prayer and a turning to God. 

I dedicate this to the Men. 

I dedicate this to my enemies. 

It was not my choice to make an enemy. 

The Lord’s will be done, and I will hope and pray fo the making of friends continuously.

Miracles are real and still happen.  God Bless.  

Security at Zebulon GT Magnet Middle School and WCPSS

I talked with my daughter while at the grave.  She told me that people sneak out of the school to talk to Diamond.  Her name is still not to be mentioned in school according to the administration, she said.  So, the kids sneak out to talk to Diamond. No memorial still.  No memorial ever.  You can write about her though.  Where does that go?

They do it in the morning and during class transition times.  They sneak out through the blind spot.  The blind spot of the cameras in the gym.  They go through the weak and broken fence and just lift it up and continue undetected off school property. It happens not just during the morning.  All the kids know the weak spot.  

She cried, "We still cannot talk about Diamond".  We came there to remember her.  I came there to thank God for the little progress I saw at the school. 

The WCPSS phenomenon is this.  They have a secure safe system, to track whom signs kids in and out of school.  I have seen at ZMS some Questionable people sign out children from school.  I used the system and 90% of the time the camera does not have a picture of me.  Nobody, in the past 8 years ever asked me for ID when signing out a child at ZMS or any WCPSS school.  So, as long as you know the name of a designated person on the approved list, you can check out any student at anytime.  

Let us run this scenario to its course.  I want to cut class.  I go to the office or from my classroom, call my cousin and my boyfriend/girlfriend/gang member, and have them come sign me out.  Then, at the end of the day I board the bus home or go to carpool.  Again, I have seen questionable people, in my mind, that definitively did not look like a parent.  

Let us continue, I am in class, and I ask to call my parent.  The teacher does not dial the number for me, and I am not required to go to the front desk and have them call for me.  So, I can call anyone, again, a boyfriend, girlfriend, or gang member, etc, and have them come pick me up.  The camera system is not designed so that front desk staff can verify there is a picture taken, and, at no time is ID required.  NO VERIFICATION.  So, here comes the person to check me out,  Only two weeks ago was I stopped by the front desk and required to come into the office to check my daughter out.  But, more importantly, kids can call ANYBODY from ANYWHERE in the school using school telephones.  I get pissed because when I miss a call and call the school back, they answer "We do not know who called you, but, we will transfer your call to your child's classroom or call her to the office to verify it was her."  I am not sure how teachers can teach when children are on the phones in the classroom?  Hum

I say this because it is scary to know kids know the security weaknesses.  Kids can call whomever at anytime during the day.  No tracking.  No dialing for them.  No STRANGER DANGER.  No checking the authorized people list.  NO PICTURE OF ME 90% of the time on the secure safe system, and, receptionist cannot check such.   She said she never left school grounds, but most of her friends do it on the regular.

She said, :"they sneak out to talk to Diamond".  They use the blindspot and the door in the gym.  The weak part of the field fence.  Is it true, I ask and need to know?  It is true, I have seen people come and sign out and NO ID REQUIRED.  God Bless. 

Is My Living in Vain

Is My Living in Vain.

It happened, after two years.  Two years that my daughter attends Zebulon Middle School, in Zebulon North Carolina. 

I had to sign her in to school after taking her to a dental appointment. 

Two years where my daughter could come in at anytime and sign herself in without any proof of having been at the clinic/hospital, etc.  NO PARENT REQUIRED. 

I talked with my daughter and asked what happened.  She said they caught students hanging around the building and not going to class and then coming in and saying they were dropped off by a parent because of a doctor appointment, meanwhile, the camera showed them not being dropped off but rather just walking around school buildings.  Scary in that it took two years for the school administrators to WAKE UP and SMELL THE COFFEE.  Wow. 

I sat in the office at times and seen it happened along with other things.  One controversy is the Dr. Note is not tracked by the main office.  “Show the note to your teacher”, they are instructed to do.  That is a stark difference in that in other schools, an administrator is assigned in the main office to scrutinize those “notes” and track lateness and attendance; not so at ZMS, but this is progress. 

In elation and memorial, I visited the grave of Diamond Selver shortly after. Why? Because I feel like my efforts to avoid another death at the school is not in vain.  There is some semblance of change. 

Sometimes, you may feel like you will never see change, and your efforts are in vain.  But, change occurred, however limited, however minimal, some parent complained about their child not attending school.  Someone complained about how the school manages the children in their care.  Something was done. 

I am thankful, and that is why I visited her grave.  It was to thank God and remember her and to feel strengthened in my efforts to make sure not another child dies or tries to die at ZMS.   

Can you let me in PLEASE

The Best, the  Cream of the Crop

It hurt, because, it was not me and my feeling.  It was someone else sharing.  It was Sunday evening.

He said, I talked with the facilities guy, and he said, “We cannot add an air assist to the door because it will break the laTcH and locking mechanism”.

He continues to talk with the fellow and tried to convince him of the need for an air assist door.  The final response from the facilities person was “Maybe in a year or two we will be able to do that”.

He asked because he was concerned.  He was in a power wheelchair and can only get into the church when he has his daughter.  She will hold the door open for him. 

My prayer is that God will provide for US.  God will provide for the disabled and families with children that are still not considered by the churches.  This is 2017.  No excuses.  The technology is here.  You go to Walmart and Target and cannot live without them.  The doors open automatically to let grandma and the spouses with kids in the strollers.  Not so at the churches, all of them that I attend. 

So when he said this, it hurt double.  But my prayer is that God will provide.  God is Good.  

Las Profetas Help me Feel Good in my Mandate

Las Profetas

It happened again, the response was, they did not come.

We provided the free food, we prepared things, we went out to Raleigh, we distributed the food and talked to people; and, they did not come.

The last time I heard that was from a Wendell Pastor; we did so and so, had these programs, and no one came. 

And, prior to that I heard it from a pastor in Wilson; same scenario, they came, participated in the benefits of the event, and they left.  

Membership drives is what I term it.  It is being of a purposeful heart to provide an event, free clothing, free food, free X-mas gifts, free-whatever, with the purpose of enticing people to come to church.  Come to my church and you will get this free. 

The pastoral responses then are, we will focus on ministry.  We will focus on preaching the word.  We will win souls for Christ without providing services.  That is the response from more than one church pastor. 

In the midst of all that, you forget the purpose should be to win people to Christ.  If I can help SOMEBODY.  One body is somebody.  That help can be a word of encouragement.  That help can be a prayer. 

God provides the increase.  It you engage in an activity for the wrong purpose, God will not provide the increase to your church.  Just purely membership drives do not work. 

And, I just heard the same absurdity this past week again, from a Profeta.  The Profeta says do not have these ministries and programs and focus on the word. It is easier to divine and discern the truth here.  If you have programs and ministries, you spend the tithes and the offerings, and, in doing so, you do not have the offering for the profeta and pastor.  So, Preach the Word, they say, because, I want that offering, and the bigger the church, the better the offering.  So, why hire a profeta to tell you a lie, because your focus and intent is wrong, and the increase is not there because God sees your heart. 

Do you really want to help, is the questions?  Do you really want to save the lost and perishing?  Or, do you just want a massive church with members?  They are coming you say.  But the question is when they come, will God provide the increase when right around the corner from you lies a Church of God that provides the programs you are refusing to provide. 

https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Deuteronomy+12&version=KJV

Duet 12:  6 & 7  in the Holy Bible

 And thither ye shall bring your burnt offerings, and your sacrifices, and your tithes, and heave offerings of your hand, and your vows, and your freewill offerings, and the firstlings of your herds and of your flocks:  [there is a colon here for a reason; it is a continuation colon] ⁷ And there ye shall eat before the Lord your God, and ye shall rejoice in all that ye put your hand unto, ye and your households, wherein the Lord thy God hath blessed thee.
One thing to point out here is the intent and purpose was a combined celebration and eating of the sacrifices and burnt offerings.  An underlying question is what do you do with all the burnt offerings and sacrifices.  Was it just for the priest in the Old testament?  Or was it for the Priest to eat and rejoice with the people.  I think it was the later. 

The church was the government, and it provided the services.  One of the most notable was the church as the court system, the judicial branch of government:
https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Exodus+18&version=KJV
Exodus 18:  14-20 in the Holy Bible
¹⁴ And when Moses' father in law saw all that he did to the people, he said, What is this thing that thou doest to the people? why sittest thou thyself alone, and all the people stand by thee from morning unto even?¹⁵ And Moses said unto his father in law, Because the people come unto me to enquire of God:¹⁶ When they have a matter, they come unto me; and I judge between one and another, and I do make them know the statutes of God, and his laws.¹⁷ And Moses' father in law said unto him, The thing that thou doest is not good.¹⁸ Thou wilt surely wear away, both thou, and this people that is with thee: for this thing is too heavy for thee; thou art not able to perform it thyself alone.¹⁹ Hearken now unto my voice, I will give thee counsel, and God shall be with thee: Be thou for the people to God-ward, that thou mayest bring the causes unto God:²⁰ And thou shalt teach them ordinances and laws, and shalt shew them the way wherein they must walk, and the work that they must do.

This here does not happen in the modern church.  Councils and elders do not intervene in controversies, but they continue to say bring the tithes and the offerings.  If you do not have elders and judges to help the people decide, then, why are you requesting the tithes and offerings.  Let that lie with the ones whom are providing the services, the government.  You cannot have it both ways; use a scripture or scriptures that show and point to a time when the church was the government that provided everything.  That is really bad because if you bulk at providing food and clothes and counseling, then, are adamant about the tithes and the offerings.  It should come natural, God mandated, provide the services and He will provide the increase,

THE TITHES AND OFFERINGS. 
https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Acts+4&version=KJV
Acts 4:32  [I do not think this scripture can be fulfilled in the United States Churches]
³² And the multitude of them that believed were of one heart and of one soul: neither said any of them that ought of the things which he possessed was his own; but they had all things common.³³ And with great power gave the apostles witness of the resurrection of the Lord Jesus: and great grace was upon them all.³⁴ Neither was there any among them that lacked: for as many as were possessors of lands or houses sold them, and brought the prices of the things that were sold,³⁵ And laid them down at the apostles' feet: and distribution was made unto every man according as he had need.³⁶ And Joses, who by the apostles was surnamed Barnabas, (which is, being interpreted, The son of consolation,) a Levite, and of the country of Cyprus,³⁷ Having land, sold it, and brought the money, and laid it at the apostles' feet.  [even the Levites did the same, wow]

This is a reutterance of the purpose again.  The church was revived.  It was providing the services.  And, No one lacked and everyone had according to their need.  Not so in the US.  Churches here do not have properties for the people to live if they have a need or go homeless.  There is not reserves of food for the hungry.  There is not reserves of clothing for those without clothing or shelter.  But, Bring the tithes and offerings.  We will preach to you all, you say. 


I have been a part of those ministries with homes and services and programs.  I have seen the glory of the Lord.  So, It is hard to hear again, as recently heard it said, “We must focus on the Word and preaching the Gospel”, while providing nothing, Let God show His power with the Increase once the Mandate is fulfilled.  Membership drives cannot be the church. God Bless and He knows the purpose of your heart as a pastor.  God Bless and in Love; May be by a False Prophet, you might say.  It troubles my heart.  

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